How do you reconcile yourself to the fact that a lovely person takes her own life.
Secure inside a large number of friends, real friends not just a card at Christmas ones.
People of all ages and both genders.
It was, we were, not enough.
I have been down to the bottom of the deep pit of despair but never considered taking the quick way out. I would not call it the "easy" way as it can not be an easy thing to do.
The SO has had his quota of despair and loss to contend with but he is still here. Still dealing with it on a daily basis.
Tomorrow is the 14th anniversary of my father,s death and 32 days later it will be 14 years since my Mother followed him. Both had been ill for a short period of time. We were all devastated. We are all still here.
Dealing with it.
A long time friend, as close as any sister for a long time, is now a memory. A good memory, full of laughter and quite a bit of naughtiness, mostly of the childlike variety.
Those memories will be held safe,most of them in a group setting.
That,s all for today.
I am glad to be back.
I hope not to leave again.
Francesca will be here soon, she has Herbie to meet and Ben will want to be as close as he can manage.
The first 30 minutes or so will be bedlam.
Back tomorrow, thank you for all your kind thoughts.